Welcome To My Brain....

Sorry About The MESS!!!!!

So I haven't posted in like FOREVER...I have been thinking a lot about my blog lately.  I want it to be a journal but then again do I really?  I know that I want to get it printed.  I have seen many friends printed blog books and I think they are super neat and I always want to keep a record of what we did as a family.  But do I really want it for a journal?  Yes and no...but I have to decide where to draw the line.  Before I have only posted what we were doing but really never said anything about any of my feelings but isn't that what a journal is supposed to be? But do I really want others to know what I am really feeling?  In some ways yes but other ways no.  If I am having a bad day sometimes it does help for me to write out my feelings but then I don't want all the sympathy that comes with it because that is not my intention, but I also want to document what is really going on in my life.  So then I thought I could just keep a separate journal but then who ever found that in the years to come would think everyday was a bad day because all the pages were filled with worry, grief, and everything else negative that comes with being human.  So I really don't want that.  And then another thing is if I get behind on posting the things I want to post I get discouraged and think I have to catch up on everything.  I am working on that...I am not going to do a huge update, yes I know I missed Halloween and it was probably one of the funnest Halloween's we have had as a family.  I did take pictures so I have it documented just not here. I am not going to do an update on Thanksgiving it was yummy and time was spent with family and I have pictures of that too but again there will be nothing on this blog to show it and last but not least Christmas.  We did celebrate Christmas and it was fun.  The kids had a blast but not one picture of 2010 will show up here.  I am going to start with what is happening in our lives now and not worry about it I missed something in the past or even if I miss something in the future. 

So here is what is happening in the now.  Jon just passed his SAE exam

in Respiratory Therapy, which gave him an associate degree in RT.

He is studying hard to take his CRT exam and then his RT exam.  I am so super proud of all the hard work that he has done for our family.  The last three years have not been easy!!!  We just closed our business that we have worked together building for the last 5 1/2 years.  We have grown closer as a couple and as a family and maybe the post important to the Lord because of the struggles that we have had to endure these past few years and wouldn't change what we have learned and how we have grown for anything.  Jon just started with a new company and will be their respiratory therapist and manager of their DME.  We are super excited for this opportunity and feel that everything happens for a reason. 

I am three weeks away from having baby #4, another boy.  Yep three boys running around the house, I have feeling Kynlee and I will be having many girl nights out just to keep our sanity. I was just released from being the primary secretary  I thought it would be a relief with me having a new baby and all but yesterday the kids in Junior primary sang a good bye song to me and I couldn't hold back my tears.  (I did better with Senior).  I grew to love those kids and the presidency more than I thought possible.  I am very blessed to been able to serve them. 

Jon and I joke that we could write a book on how not to live life backwards since that is what we pretty much have done, or how to survive if you happen to live your life backwards.  But the important thing is, is that we did survive and we are much better for it.  The lessons we have learned are invaluable and we can't wait to continue using them in our lives.

Family is what it is all about. I am so thankful for the knowledge that I have about eternal families.  The gospel has helped me in my life so much lately.  I know that it's true and that Joseph Smith saw God the Father and His Son Jesus Christ, and that he restored the gospel to its fullest.  I know that I am loved and never forgotten.  Sometimes it has felt like I was all alone but I just had to get on my knees and I felt that I had an army fighting for me.  And when I felt like I was forgotten it wasn't me that was forgotten it was I who forgot the Lord.  I am so thankful for the power of prayer and that I am able to talk with my Father in Heaven who is always there to listen.